The good and the bad

There are times were I think we are tested to see how strong we are. I feel that God watches over us but he also strengthens us thru the good times and the bad. The past couple of weeks have been so hard for our family. The devastating news about my sister and her husband discovering that they are having conjoined twins has broken me into so many pieces. It was so hard to comprehend why this would happen. We were due 2 days apart and I had planned so many things for us to do. Regardless of how the babies were born wouldn't have matter to any of us. It was the fact that we know that Chris and Luci are not able to have their babies very long. These beautiful souls are living testimony of their love, but they had to except that they belong to God. Their time is limited to bond with the babies because we do not know when God will take them in his arms in heaven. I may never be able to meet my nieces, but I have much love for the pair of them. My sister and her husband are so strong and I admire them both for being my inspiration of strength. This has not pushed them away from God but made them closer. Please feel free to look at their website http://www.klarefamily.blogspot.com/ . The more people look at this couple who have have to deal with such hardship, the more they will inspire others. I look at them and I see God working his miracle.

On Friday our family had blessed news that my sister had delivered a baby girl named Emilia Gray Trailov. She is beautiful!! I am so happy for my sister and her husband. God has given us another baby Lov and I can't wait to meet her. Wow to think I have to go thru that in August, scary!

I went to the doctor on Thursday and heard my baby's heart beat. Amazing, again. I tend to feel guilty sometimes because I don't feel pregnant. Of course I am gaining weight but I don't have any bad symptoms. In about 6-8 weeks I will be able to feel my baby and see a baby bump a bit more, or maybe much more! I am on the count down to find out if I am having a girl or a boy. April 7th will be my day to find out. I really would love a girl first, but if its a boy I would love it too. I just wanted to prepare myself a little longer for all the gross stuff that comes with boys. The burping, farting, picking the nose, and scratching things in public are things that I hope I don't have to deal with when I have a boy. Well either way this baby is so special to me. I know baby has felt my pain the past few weeks, but I share happiness with the baby too. I watch my belly everyday wondering what the baby Bagby is doing.