Monday, February 15, 2010

A little note....

I would love to post pictures, but I can't find the batteries to the camera! I just wanted to write a quick update. Although I know this blog sits idle for long periods of time, I still like to go back to it every once in a while.
Wow, how time flies. Just a little over 6 months ago I gave birth to little baby Sophia. Our lives have been so blessed ever since! I was lucky enough to have been able to spend the first six months of her life at home with her. God knew exactly what I needed, and He provided!! Ty and I have experienced life on such a different level than what it was before. We live life for her now, and work our tails off for her future, not ours! I must say, I have been so overwhelmed with so much in the past couple of weeks.
Ever since Ty started his new job, his schedule is constantly changing. Its hard when your husband works so much. Our time together seems to be limited right now, because of his work schedule. I had no idea that I was so emotionally attached to my husband until he started this job. I almost felt like a little kid who wanted to cry every time mommy left. He has been at this job for almost 2 months now, and I still find myself missing him SO much! I took for granted the time we use to have, and now I try to soak up every moment!
With Ty being gone so much, it has given me so much responsibility with Sophia and the house. At first I was trying to be super woman and getting it all done: the baby, the dogs, cleaning the house, laundry, cooking dinner......whatever it may have been, I was there to do it. Now that I have started my job last week, I am still trying to figure out a good schedule. After getting home from work, I immediately fed Soph, gave her a bath, read some books and put her to bed. By the time that is all done, its 7:30/8 pm. I tried so hard to do homework(which I so need to be doing now!) that by the time I started, I was too tired to stay awake.
I am going to do my best to be a great mom, a wonderful wife, a dedicated employee, and a good student. Its taking a lot out of me, but the minute I became a mother was when I realized that my time isn't my time any longer. I'll do anything for her, even if it is feeling like a zombie at times.
I just have to remind myself that my mother did it with 9 kids, I can do it with one! Heck, my mom and dad are still doing it! WOW, that just put a thought in my head........If I am 60 years old still doing this, I will have the darkest circles under my eyes. OMG, what were my parents thinking???
Okay, I really have to study now..... oh ........I'm so tired!